It's always in the most trying and frustrating times that I seem to learn life's best lessons. And by best I mean toughest and, appropriately enough, the most meaningful. I'm the type of person who likes to know the end before the beginning. I like peeking at the last sentence of a chapter in my book before I'm even on that page. I'm impatient as I sit through a new movie because I don't know what the last scene will behold. I like follow through. I like plans that stick. I like being totally and completely informed. However, reality rarely gives me the glimpses into the future that I so desire - especially during the tough times.
For a long time my husband and I have been talking about taking a certain leap of faith. Now the time to jump is upon us. It's scary and all I want is to know what will be on the other end. I want answers. Or at least a back-up plan. However, in my moments of utmost confidence I realize that taking a leap of faith requires the not knowing. Where does faith come in if I already have the answers?
A few other things I'm learning about enduring trials and uncertainty...
Live one day at a time / Life is so much easier when you live it as it's happening. Do the dishes. Play games with your kids. Wear the cute outfit even if you have nowhere to go. Then do it all again tomorrow.
Focus on your blessings / A man who I admire very much recently warned me not to get sucked into the despair and discouragement that come with facing a problem. He told me to count my blessings and be grateful for the good things. And so I am. I started a gratitude journal and, though I don't write in it everyday, I see my blessings much more clearly on a daily basis.
Don't let your struggle define you / We all need a break from our own problems. It's as simple as that. Don't let every person in on your trial. Don't let every conversation be about the negative. Let yourself sit back and breathe every once in a while.
At the end of the day, I'm still scared and worried. And I probably will be for a long time. But hey - even though we may not know where or when we will land, we are taking this leap!